Day 50: Halting the Hustle

Day 50: Sorry about my long absence. With the extremely crazy hours I’m working and me becoming ill with a horrible stomach bug, I haven’t had time to blog. Well it appears my job may become a thing of my past. It seems that the friends that were so quick to offer me help if I were to get the job, were just being polite. I am finding it difficult to get rides to work anymore and the sad things is I am only asking an average of 2 times a week. So if that is too much to ask then the offer was probably never really there. I really do love this job, but I defiantly did not understand how important having a car would be. The one friend I never expected to blow me off, the friend that owes me over $500 for the cost of my warrant he caused me to have, was the first to be done helping me. He knows how important this job is to me, I would think he would feel a sense of obligation. I know, I know how can I still continue to have faith in people? Should I be surprised, no. So as with everything else in my life I’ll just take it one day at a time, asking God for his help and hopefully we will find something to make it possible for me to keep my job. I hope this blog makes sense, I have been sober for three days and my head has become completely fuzzy. I’ve been crying all day, snapping at everyone I come in contact with. I want so bad to succeed but am feeling even more alone with each passing day. I have a long work day tomorrow, so I’m going to head to bed right now. Any comforting words anyone can offer would be greatly appreciated, I am feeling so very low right now. Thanks.

” Don’t feel sad over someone

who gave up on you.

Feel sorry for them, because

they gave up on someone who

never would have given up on them. “