Day 28: Love does not exist. Love to me is unconditional. It can see through all the bad at any given moment to find the good. If you love someone you will be there to enjoy the good times, but there's no getting rid of you during the bad times. You will know when the one you love says they want to be alone or to leave them alone, you will do the complete opposite. Even if this means you just sit there in silence. It means that when your love says mean and hurtful things, its only because she needs to be angry and knows you love her enough to look pass your own selfish feelings and hold her even closer when she's angry and hurting. If you really love her, you will never, I mean never walk away or shut her out. You never give up or let go till she walks away and doesn't come back. Some will say that's being a pussy, a push over. But no, that's love...unconditional love. Well, maybe just a fairy tale....cause this kind of love doesn't exist. I guess that's why I'm lonely cause my expectations from this grand word " Love" are to high and unrealistic.
As far as family goes, blood trumps all. At least it should. I wouldn't really know, my family turned their back on me long ago. Nonetheless, every holiday and birthday I still send a greeting telling them I love them. I never get a reply, even though it shows they seen the message. That has to be one of the most painful feelings I've experienced. But I will continue to reach out and be here if they ever do need me, cause that's my blood. Mom tried to warn me that love didn't exist, guess she's showing me now. Happy Birthday to me.
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