Day 8: Halting the Hustle

Day 8: I spent most the day sleeping. Today was the first day I didn't have any " business" calls. I failed miserably at staying sober today. But I didn't spend any money on it ( cause I don't have any money), nor did I do any business. I guess it's my dealers way of pretending to be nice, when I know he's just trying to reel me back in. Either way, I'm an addict so I accepted it. I was even nice enough to bring it home and split it with my girlfriend. I look at it as weaning ourselves off. Whatever I have to tell myself to feel better about it, right? I did make the most out of the meeting, offered him my scales and baggies. Since I won't be needing them anymore. He tried to tell me what cheap deals he was getting and the kind of price break he could offer me, but I refused to let him tell me. No need for me to know. I know I need to stop associating with these people if I'm going to be successful, but it's hard. I don't have a support team on the other side of the fence and I'm not prepared to be completely alone. I do have one friend that is also quitting with me, she's been more successful than I have. We are going to attend an NA meeting tomorrow. Maybe I'll make some new friends there to help me with this journey.